It has been a whole month since I mae a blog for oyu all... I am not making it on my laptop so I dont get to have autocorrect and some of my kaomojis but besides that, here as I am in algebra I desided to let you all know about the art medium I was gonna use to make my story for my OC called Nate, he's going to be the main character in my story I'm making. I want to combine some concepts I saw in other comics as well as mechanisms I found cool in the past. I'ts going to be a pop up book that kinda opens like the earths direction as it spins, I also wanted it to be like a webcomic but with some particles that move as the mouse glides along the screen. I havent started making it but i've already began testing some features of my concept.
1/19/2025
Helllo.... today I'm posting this blog as I try to make my Blog site moble friendly- AAaasss you can see guys... Iiits going oo h sooo weell l l l l rn... And I am hoping it only gets better from here... IIiiii hope it goes as well as ur mighty fine garb over there... heh... yeah... eughueughueghugh🤤🤤🥴🥴💦👅👅💦 Im very tired at 4 am so i am going to honkmimimi now... I tried my best and next I will create a compact gallery... in moble it should look really great... I made my own path, my own way to mible friendly cause I didn't want to break the intricate pieces I made= made it harder for myself... I tried this meta thing to make it moble firendly but it janked my stuff so I had to engineer and now go homkmimimi... you see... I have to come back sometime later for the next patch update cause I began sewing hairclips and a plushy for my friends birthday... I'm glad I know plushy in spanish is peluche because during the spanish BENCHMARKS I did'nt make a script of what to say in spanish like everyone else did so I had to rawdog the whole thing...
read all the spanish instructions and questions and speak out the answers that I had to think up on the spot when I don't even really remember the proper grammer like past present future pronouns and there effect on verbs ahhhhh and what not... I was sweating looking around for answers... I wanted to type what I wanted to say in google translater and write it down than go to the secure test browser with a sceipt so I could be at ease like everyone else... I wanted to steal someones speech script and booya but I just rawdawgged it... it was so hard and I had to answer what people do on the holidays like dia de los muertos and navidad... like what families eat, decorate, and what games and traditions they do.. like what regalos ninos reciben en navidad 🐺 I didnt know how to answer those how they decorate questions cause I didnt remeber any decoration names except for adorno de navidad but you needed to be descriptive to get credit so for the what presents kids recieve I put los ninos reciben mucho regalos como peluches y juegetes and I put for decoration questions en el de dia de los muertos familias decoran y adornios y colores rojo color de naranja y morado... and those where the questions I mostly struggled with cause I lost all my notes with those holiday words and descriptives it was so sad...I havent gotten my grade for that verbal portion but on the vocabulary I got an 85 so I honestly think I'm just sigma and I only gyatt that on top never stop achieving aura so I only stress over future success cause that 2% probabilaty that I won't succeed good night my little omegas... replenish your essance... for the next galactical raid on our heavens 
1/16/2025
Yesterday and today we've been having a lot of benchmarks- L lL lL L lll LIKE BENCHMARKS eHEHheehhehe AAHAHahahh (っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ You know I've been counting on different destinations Complications exit strategiess repeat to the fiftieth peak ♥ I looovee benchmarksss IIIii Looovee Benchmarkss 🤤
1/15/2025
Today I wanted to analyze A Jack Stauber song and express the resolution I found to my sadness what I am going to do to push it out cause I do not want this feeling anymore! I can talk about some projects I've been doing too and how life has been, though not for long cause I wasn't feeling disciplined enough like I wasn't doing enough, I felt like I wasn't being sufficient but I signed up to be like an elementary buddy to elementary kids and now on Wednesdays I have signed myself away to volunteer from 7 to 8 at that program also cause my friend is in the program and says its a very heartwarming duty to be a mentor life coach older sibling to those little kids... with so many warm fuzzy stories to tell... I haven't woken up so early in a while except to not sleep and be awake once that wee hour of the morning passes heh... I signed up without really thinking how that strain in itself might push me farther into this decrepid state but whatever! I don't care I need to toughen up anyways until my armor shields me from harsher things... Is it even that bad? I'll get over it with time and it will be like a brace to my rest I'll be forced to go through being more tired throughout the week forcing me to sleep more and better till it's a resolved problem easily. It's gonna be so fun...
Well after that Some progects I have been working on recently is making some paper dolls, I plan to create all the ones I've picked out thus far than I want to craft some hairclips as a birthday present for my friends birthday I hope they like them!!! I'm planning on making hairclips with fabric details like frills and such. I requested my mom buy some little charms for my project too to make them extra cute!!! I take inspiration from when my mom used to do many crafts like sewing dresses and knitting hats and gloves... crafting hair accessories and painting... She used to love decorating our house for holidays with spandals across the ceiling and very theatrical activities... I have very happy memories of that time... thought it was short thats where my mind drifts as a calming warm craddeling headspace... And I believe my friend will enjoy it a lot too!! I'm going to print out band art and album covers of the diffrent music artists they like. Because imagine wearing decorated clips in your hair!! once i gave them a butterfly clip and they wore it a lot, it made me very happy... so I want to give them more hairclips!! I want to make them myself so they have a greater sentimental value too... I remember when they told me their birthday was coming up and I asked what they had planned, they seemed a little tense at the idea saying they never celebrated their birthday... I guess you would've felt bad hearing that and end it there but I continued about presents? written birthday cards? could i express graditude for our lives crossing paths? I can't wait for the party I will have so much fun for sure!! So happy! I am planning on making the clips on the weekend or in little increments over these next weeks... I started going back to cyber club! so I lost the free time I had after school now.
On Sundays and Saturdays, I go to the Mathnasium too... I don't really enjoy it because I always feel stupid... I usually get 2 to 3 pages of math done every day there... but it doesn't feel like an accomplishment because I'm in 10th grade. However, I'm doing 8th-grade level math because I still struggle with it and the repetitiveness of going over the same maths will sharpen my knowledge... but I've been struggling the same for 6 weeks... I'm doing GCF and LCF I am also doing percentages which I'm doing excellent in. It's just secondary math to complement the greatest lowest common factor stuff I'm struggling at, so I don't break down from feeling stupid they don't want that they want me to grow so they never rush me or comment on how slow I'm learning. So I am not angry at the mathnasium itself mostly I'm upset that in such a nurturing environment I still struggle... Well, on another note, I think I will analyze the lyrics to Benchmarks by Jack Stauber, it's from the micropop album and I really love that album... I love all the albums and every song in them but at this moment I'm here to tell you why I love this song benchmarks...
I've been thinking about that song Benchmark because it resonated with the thoughts that have been there clouding my vision for so long... I don't like consuming other people's analysis of Jack Staubers work cause as it is mostly subjective you should know that means the interpretation of each song is best found by the individual listening... when you listen to Jackstauber it is like listening to classical music where the instrumental sounds carry you through a scenic trance thought up from your own mind. Jack Stauber even expresses to his fans that ask questions that he doesnt want the to seek out concrete reason he likes it to be a little vague so you will find reason. Personal thoughts and ideas are important to me... You should be able to keep them and people should respect that even if they do not align with that observer's own ideals that person should be able to see the humanness in every creature experiencing their own version of the world, you either attempt to understand and connect with others or become bothered and distance yourself from the notion. Well anyway, I will type out the lyrics now, after the chorus, I wanna insert my own interpretations and if you don't want to read that part I'm sorry I already wrote it and it is your own responsibility to leave here or relax and continue...
You know I've been counting on different destinations
Complications, exit strategies
Repeat to the fiftieth peak
In the last three weeks and I've been so—
Intensely with the Sundays and sunscreen's
Different each morning but all the ignoring
Sorting seconds and meeting folk
And tamp listing minute by minute
I'm still teething terribly
Benchmarks in the bench in the park
It's a book but I can't seem to read anything
But I can't seem to read anything- But I cant seem to read anything..
When Jackstauber counts all the paths of possibilities, where he could go from here he analyses difficulties and ways he would avoid them at the cost of moving forward. "counting on different destinations" because he relies on possibilities that haven't arrived yet he begins to become stagnant at that idea stage... he does not act on any opportunities because of this, he doesn't do anything he actually desires to do because of it he builds up to that conclusion "repeat to the 50th peak" after this we understand this is a longer struggle than it should be. He's becoming numb to the loss and loses the longing to search for change or help "In the last three weeks and I've been so..." we are given descriptions of this corrosive headspace festering from this indecision, of times in this stunted period of personal growth even personal goals, where he was doing this repetitive analyzing options with no action. "Intensely with the Sundays and sunscreen's different each morning but all the ignoring" he is becoming encapsulated in this space in this inability to seek out a path, to make a choice, to step out of this plain pattern. But also the acceptance, there's no suffering either or... why does he need to step outside now? When he can rerun the possibilities through this space, stuck at this Benchmark at this checkpoint see it visually? Imagine all this thought visually. He's been stuck here at a bench in the park? Trying to read past the benchmark he's found himself lost in he can't seem to read anything... anything... And when you listen to any Jack Stauber song on loop it loops perfectly so you could listen to Benchmarks 50 times to become enlightened maybe like me...
I made a new div called vent than span next to it so I can seporate those somehow when I feel like it's not really nice to read...
I wanted to make a blog today about taking the mbti test agian cause I wasnt sure if it was accurate my reason being if your in a diffrent headspace dont your answers to mbti quesstions change to much to stay consistently 1 archetype? I'm really sad right now so I wanted to take it agian... I took it the first time I was pretty normal feeling for my standards... the second time I took it I didnt want to be at school cause those same feelings plagued me when I felt like there was something wrong with me due to someone not really valuing me... And now I guess its myself just attacking me as I am alone... And my result from the mbti test is pretty simular... I dont really remember what I got last time... I think it was Infp... (I searched what I got last time... I forgot...(¬_¬ ) And this time Im pretty sure I got the same thing... I'll loot at the e-mail...
Yeah I got INFP-T Personality traites: Introverted- 64% Intuitive-78% feeling-56% Prospecting-86% Turbulent-58%
12/26/24 3:29AM
I got a link for the death insurance webpage thaat I admire.. my blog says "I wanna be just like death insurance when I wake up"
Today, I spent another day on spacehey🐺 and I remade my whole profile, yes I used premade layouts(▀̿Ĺ̯▀̿ ̿)... but after that I tweeked it so much and messed with the html so much I recreated it!!＼（〇_ｏ）／! I did it to learn and grow from experience..ฅʕ•̫͡•ʔฅ. I imagine that a lot of the features on programs like google docs coinside with the ones that are optional to utilize and create through html so I wanna learn how you can wrap photos around text, maybe like samsung notes... Its really late right now though. I am wrapping up my ideas, slowing down until I stop so I can finally leave...On pintrest ive been uploading photos to use... I don know a better way..(┬┬﹏┬┬). to create my own png links, I just drag images to the search bar to take it to a new tab and the url is the png link... that's just how I abstract it...so crazily I've charged my laptop 4 times today from using it so long HAha¯\_(ツ)_/¯ aguaguagaugauagauagauagauagauuaaauaa a aa.night❤️
12/24/24 ?:?
Hello! I think I set it up right so far... I did it!!! this is going to be my blog from now on!!!
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Here i'll put a blinky to my space hey! Hover over the blinky and you should see the url name to know which is which in the jukebox is my spotify account page, yeah!Now I am gonna add more social media platforms into that box... they'll all be blinkies eHEHheehheheeheehheee
